Being A New Believer

Lately I have had a lot of comments about my spirituality. A lot of people say things like, "you have flipped over 'this religion'", "you are hardcore now", etc. Maybe that is true. But nothing has ever given me the overwhelming peace and comfort that I have felt since becoming a believer.

My testimony is totally awesome and gives God all the glory, but I am not ready, and not sure if I ever will be, to share it publicly. The little part I am willing to share is this: God has changed my life. As a mother, as a wife, as a person totally. I remember clearly a day in January. Robbie was doing The Love Dare. Through that, he was discovering all sorts of things about himself and us. He texted me that day in January about how he had re-dedicated his life to The Lord. That in order to make our marriage stronger and better, he wanted that relationship with Christ. Through my blurred vision, I wrote back that it was the best text I have ever received. I was so happy for him, but what about me?? I had never given my life to the Lord, even though I believed in Him. After I saw how happy Robbie was in his renewed faith, I started asking a lot of questions. On February 6th of this year, I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. So awesome!

Sometimes I am overwhelmed. I have so many good friends who are like little theologians, walking around ministering to people and their blog posts are filled with bible verses that are totally related to their situation. However, that feeling of inadequacy is not the point of being a Christian. Believing that God sent his only Son, Jesus, to die for US! For you and me! Even though we were full of sin (and still are), he died to give us eternal life. In our bible study, we studied God's love this week. God loves us as much as he loves his own Son!! Can you imagine?! I know I can't imagine loving everyone (or anyone, really) as much as I love William. I am still figuring it all out myself, but I will tell you - it is just overwhelming and sooo comforting to know you always have someone with you and with your best interests at heart.

The thing is, Providence Baptist Church is my happy place. Robbie and I serve on the leadership team in our Sunday school class, on Sunday nights at BLAST with the four year olds, and I attend a wonderful women's bible study that I just love. When I am there, it is like home to me. However, attending all of these events, and listening to K-Love radio, and saying "Praise God!"; that isn't all there is to it! You have to truly believe!! And I can tell you, I truly believe, and try to live my life for Him everyday. Will I make mistakes? Of course. Every day can't be perfect. But, my marriage and my life as a whole has improved since trusting God. I will also tell you, there is nothing sweeter than seeing a little baby put his hands together and bow his head to pray, and whisper "Dear God", and start listing all of the things he is thankful for. Thank you, Jesus!!